Work week’s almost done. Thank you very much!! It felt like I’ve waited for the weekend far too long. Stress and annoying people can do that to anyone. Yes, I am stressed, and yes I’ve dealt with annoying people far too much. I am the type of person who would get so bored with her daily routine at work then the moment she faced some trouble, she wants them gone right away. If I have a problem, I’d deal with it right away and I want it solved. If that situation lingered for a few hours or days (which will make me go absolutely crazy), it would bug me and I’d worry over it until my head’s about to explode. I always convince myself that I don’t worry cause it’s useless anyway, but once problems find me, that mantra will be gone in sixty seconds. I always want a planned, serene, quiet, organized life especially at work.
I have a meeting with my “bosses” next week and as early as today I am already thinking of what will be discussed. I told myself that if I am confident with my performance at work, there is nothing I have to worry about so I should be relaxed right? But no! I keep on fussing over it. Geez! What kind of a disorder is that? So I have to remind myself, that I am no longer a fresh grad who’s not sure of herself. I am an adult, a professional and everything I’d do should be done the grown up way.
What is the grown up way anyway? For me, it’s about confidence, tact, diplomacy, and of intelligence. Do I have all of those? I hope so, but I really have to convince myself that I could be that person. One day I’d be the woman I wanted to be and I am sure when that time comes I’d want something else for myself. Typical grown up way.