Celebrate Life!

Today’s my 2nd day being 29. Woot! I am 29! Wow that was fast. When I was a kid, people in their twenties are old for me, so now I am ancient. Anyways, I decided during my name day (birthday in the Game of Thrones) that I will do something special for myself every day to celebrate life.

For day 1:

Yesterday being my name day (what a dork!), I spent the day with family and friends. Went to church and ate lunch with the family; and dinner with awesome friends. That was great albeit the expenses.

 

Day 2:

It’s today and I decided that I will never be too hard on myself. I was asked to draft a letter and my draft returned with corrections. I am not used to that, most of the time, my work need not much correcting. Today was different, though the boss didn’t saying anything else save for the things she wants to add to the letter, I was disappointed with myself. This is what I hate about me, I always expect myself to do an impeccable job. I can’t stand it when my work is less than perfect. So I decided that as a gift to myself, I will let this incident go and act as if it never happened. This is so hard for me, every time my work is less than faultless, I berate myself and will took a long time to forgive myself. So take a deep breath and forget about it. It’s over and done, do yourself a favor and move on.

 

Day 3:

That’s tomorrow. So I don’t know what I will be rewarding myself with yet. 

 

I really hope that I will faithful to my new crusade: to be always good to myself.

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Game of Thrones Season 4 Episode 6 – The Laws of Gods and Men

The Laws of Gods and Men aka the best episode of the season or probably the whole series is freaking amazing!  It was so full of drama, action, surprises and heart stopping scenes.  It made me mad, sad, terrified and it even made me smile (thanks to one pirate). Every freaking second counts.  As always, Game of Thrones never disappoints but this episode is probably the best.  Looking back at the scenes, I am still at awe.  Kudos to the director, writers, producers and actors. That was an episode that set the bar higher.  Episode 2 of this season was my favorite, Joffrey finally died (applause), but episode 6 definitely trumped that one. There are just so much I want to say about the episode but afraid I will not make sense, so I will just  try to break them down to pieces.

1.  The flashbacks. I was kind of disoriented when scenes from previous seasons were shown all concerning Tyrion.  It didn’t made sense until the trial and I have to commend HBO and the producers for that.

2.  Ser Davos convincing  Tycho Nestoris of the Iron Bank to loan Stannis money.  Personally, I wouldn’t be convinced if the same argument was used to me.  I mean, you will loan a man because he is “rightful heir” and honest? All Davos have to do is show his blunt fingers and telling them that Stannis is his prime compared to a prepubescent boy (Tommen) and the old man (Tywin). Whatever, all I know is Davos saved the ungrateful Stannis.  I love seeing the pirate Salladhor Saan, he me made me laugh (which rarely happens when I am watching GoT), seeing him makes me thinks of fun adventures. 

3. Yara Greyjoy‘s attempt to free Theon aka Reek.  That was awesome, so exciting and terrifying at the same time.  I came to like Yara and I don’t want her dead just because of Theon (I still hate him).  Yara is a badass, I  was so excited to see her in a combat.  The scene in the kennels was heart pounding especially when the sadistic Ramsay Snow came in, now,  that man easily took Joffrey’s place as the vilest character in the series.  I was so worried for Yara, I don’t want her to be another hostage of Ramsay or be a snack for his dogs.  Good thing Yara realized Theon is not worth her life especially when he is a full fledged Reek now.  Alfie Allen did a fine job of portraying the traumatized, tortured and brainwashed Theon.  He was believable but I don’t want anymore scene with him and Ramsay (but with Ramsay’s plan I’ll seeing more of them for sure).  I was expecting a full on war between house Greyjoy and Bolton and only got a taste of it instead.

4. Daenerys Stormborn, of House Targaryen, the First of her Name, The Unburnt, Queen of the Andals and the First Men, Queen of Meereen, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, Breaker of Chains and Mother of Dragons  (that was fun haha) realized is not that easy to rule.  Conquering was easy for her and she gets annoying as the story goes on.  She can blame it to her youth, I blame it to her ignorance and arrogance.  She’s like a spoiled child, she’s like I want that and since I have dragons I’ll have them. She’ll ask counsel and she’ll not listen anyway. If you’ll ask me, she amassed her warriors through sheer luck.  In this episode she learned that ruling is a full time job,  hearing supplicants and making decisions for her “people”.  We saw a moment of vulnerability and indecision on her face. Turned out she can easily be swayed.  And her dragons are getting way out of control!! What’s next? They’ll barbecue a human being?  I used to like Dany at the start of  Season 1, not anymore.

5. Oberyn Martell‘s now a member of the small council. I like Oberyn, he’s a breath of fresh air to the series, with all that old, boring faces.  He is an enigma, he appeared to be easygoing and doesn’t have a care in the world but we all know he’s in Kings Landing for a reason.  He’s funny too.  Loved the conversation he had with Varys the Eunuch:

Oberyn: Everybody’s interested in something.

Varys: Not me.  When I see what desire does to people, what it has  done to this country I am very glad to have no part in it.  Besides the absence of desire leaves one free to pursue other things.

Oberyn: Such as?

Varys then looked at the Iron Throne and left Oberyn

Turned out Varys is also interested in the Iron Throne, and I thought he only cares about the realm. (This is one of the reasons GoT is so interesting, characters are so shady, you don’t know whose side are they on, line between good and evil is blurred).

6. Jaimie Lannister’s sacrifice to save Tyrions’ life.  Jaimie’s not the one of the nice guys in the show, but he loves his brother, probably the only one who truly loved Tyrion.  He bargained with his father to spare Tyrion’s life.  He will leave the Kingsguard,  return to Casterly Rock and become Tywin’s heir to continue the Lannister’s  dynasty, if Tywin will assure Tyrion’s survival after the trial.  They had an understanding, Tyrion will be given a chance to plead guilty and be allowed to join the nights watch.  Jaimie’s effort to save Tyrion is heart warming, a scene that is rare in GoT. The question is, will Tyrion plead guilty? Wasn’t the same was promised to Ned Stark by Joffrey? Only he was beheaded after “confessing” his crimes.  Tyrion is stubborn and if he did plead guilty will Tywin remain true to his words?

7. Tyrion Lannister’s trial. I have been missing Tyrion from the previous episodes, only a few scenes in the dungeons.  He made up for it though at the trial.  Tyrion is hands down the best character in the series.  He knew that the trial is nothing but a farce, a charade.  He is guilty in
everyone’s eyes anyway.  The judges are Tywin, Oberyn and Mace Tyrell.  At start of the trial, Tyrion was so cool, he even made me laugh when he said that they can blame the bakers or the pigeon for Joffrey’s death as long as they leave him out of it.   Then came the witnesses, Meryn Trant,  Queen Regent Cersei, Maester Pycelle, Varys all trying to incriminate Tyrion.   Tyrion remained calm until they call the last witness, and the last person Tyrion expected to see, Shae.  He thought Shae was safe, away from Kings Landing.  The look in Tyrion’s face is heartwrenching, he was pleading with his eyes.  Shae wants to get even or maybe Tywin and Cersei threatened her or she was really jealous of Sansa and was hurt when Tyrion sent her away (for her own safety).  Whatever her reason, she broke Tyrion’s heart and put the final nail in Tyrion’s coffin.  The trial reminds me of Tyrion’s trial in the Eyrie where he also “confessed’ his sins and was able to escaped death through wit and quick thinking.  Then Tyrion spoke, he wished to confess and what he said broke my heart (for Tyrion) and thinking of an Emmy (for Peter Dinklage).  I am not an expert in acting (whatsoever) but I am sure that Peter Dinklage’s acting was brilliant.  He gave a powerful monologue, something that will go done in TV history.

Tyrion:  I wish to confess.  I saved you.  I saved this city and all your worthless lives. I should have let Stannis kill you all. I’m guilty. Guilty. Is that what you want to hear?

Tywin: You admit you poisoned the king.

Tyrion:  No – of that i’m innocent. I’m guilty of a far more monstrous crime. I’m guilty of being a dwarf.

Tywin:  You’re not on trial for being a dwarf.

Tyrion:  Oh, yes I am. I’ve been on trial for that my entire life.

Tywin:  Have you nothing to say in your defense?

Tyrion:  Nothing but this — I did not do it. I did not kill Joffrey but I wish that I had. Watching your vicious bastard die gave me more relief than a thousand lying whores. I wish I was the monster you think I am. I wish I had enough poison for the whole pack of you. I would gladly give my life to watch you all swallow it.

Tywin: Ser Meryn — escort the prisoner back to his cell.

Tyrion: I will not give my life for Joffrey’s murder and know I’ll get no justice here, so I will let the gods decide my fate. I demand a trial by combat.

Will he be able to pull this trial by combat thing twice?  Who will be his champion? Jaimie? Bronn, who is not even around during his trial. Will he fight for himself? Oh dear, I cannot wait for the next episode, dying here.

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Jitters

In 12 days I will be turning 29, what?! 29?! Where have all the years gone? Time flew so fast, it’s like I was still 23 yesterday and I woke up about to turn 29.  Well first off  I am so glad I am almost 29 and so looking forward to more years and getting older.  It’s just that I  can’t believe that it has been almost 3 decades since I was born. Sometimes I would say that so much had happened but sometimes I would say that my life has been uneventful for most part.  This is probably what they call birthday jitter or pre-birthday jitter rather, I don’t even know why I am bothered by another year added to my age, age is just a number as they say.  Maybe because I am messing with myself, feeling unworthy of my years because I haven’t accomplished much (here I go again belittling myself). Back then when I was still in school, when everything’s possible, I had this timeline in mind, like finishing college at the age of 21, land a good position in a prestigious company, start helping the family, saving lots of money, send the siblings to school, start up a business at 25, buy my own house and a car at 27, travel the world in my 30’s and oh of course fall in love, get married by 35 and have kids, I will be a great wife and mother and a very successful business woman and I lived happily ever after.  Sounds great but that is not how life operates, life loves messing up with your grand plans.  Life will throw so much hurdles your way, it will surprise the heck out of you, will make your life so complicated then helps you out when you felt like you can’t take no more.  If I am to describe life, it goes like this:

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face  – Ironic (Alanis Morissete)

On the bright side, life will never be boring, that’s for sure.  You’ll never know what’s coming your way, on that note, life is exciting.  So how am I doing? Great actually, for the longest time I have looking for a job that I will truly love and God finally granted my wish, I now have a career instead of a mere job, you know, loving what you are doing, learning so much along the way, inspiring you to be a better person, making you dream of bigger thing.  Career wise, I am the right on track and  if I all my plans went along well I’d be the happiest person in the planet. My sister just graduated from college last month and that made me very happy.  I busted my ass to send my siblings to school. I hope at this point, I can finally save and pursue graduate study.

I feel so old when I think of all the plans that are yet to materialize, I felt like I failed myself.  I probably feel better if I stop thinking too much and putting pressure to my self but that’s who I am.  I can’t stop, I won’t stop, I will go after my heart’s desire even if its the last thing I’ll do.  I have grand dreams, dreams that most might call silly or impossible but it doesn’t cost  a thing to dream so I dream on and on.  That is what really bothers me.  Not accomplishing all my goals at this age.  I just want to so much more than who I am right now.  I am destined for great things, I am born to excel, to conquer.  It may took me too long to be where I want to be but I am patient, stubborn and resilient.  I will not give up just because the people around me won’t cooperate or the world have other plans for me.

And I feel so young sometimes, l am childlike most of the time (when I am not drowning in my crazy thoughts), like I don’t deserve to be called a woman cause I am still a child at heart.  Cartoons still make me giddy, I laugh at the silliest things, I am not sophisticated nor elegant. Maybe this is the result of my growing up too fast since I was the eldest child, I am now making up for all those years that I should have been playing.  It is only lately that I am wearing make up and girly clothes.  I feel like I am just in my late teens-early twenties, when I am just discovering my fashion style, I am just starting to develop my confidence.  I aim to become this elegant, sophisticated, intellectual, confident, strong woman and yet most of the time I am still a child at heart.  I’ll probably never be the ideal woman of the world and that’s fine but for now I’d like to see and try.

Well advance happy birthday to me.  Despite all the crazy thoughts running through my mind, I know I am blessed, I am loved.  I am awesome.  God blessed me with strength and wisdom to go after my dreams.  Life is beautiful.

A Song of Ice and Fire/Game of Thrones

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Words will never be enough to express my utter devotion to the Game of Thrones/A Song of Ice and Fire series. I am so hooked that I sometimes dream about the characters. I watch the TV series then read the books and I would sometimes asked myself “Should I read the books or watch the TV series first?” A lot of times, I would say “hey that wasn’t in the books” when the TV series turned to be different from what was written. Game of Thrones fever came to me late; I was just hearing and reading about it and got curious. I watched the first episode and I fell, hook, line and sinker. That was just last year.

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The Iron Throne

What is Game of Thrones anyway? Why I am so crazy about it? Game of Thrones is a TV series based on A Song of Ice and Fire, the amazing George R. R. Martin‘s series of fantasy novel.   The first book is entitled Game of Thrones (thus the title of the TV series). The series is set on the fictional continents of Westeros and Essos.   If I try to explain more about it I will be finished next year. The storyline has so many arches, told from several points of views (that kept on growing as the series continues), events occurring simultaneously, several books and seasons later and only a year has passed. It’s basically a civil war between noble houses, each believing they are the rightful one to sit in the Iron Throne and rule the Seven Kingdoms of Westeros. The story is rich with treachery, intrigue, violence, greed, conspiracy and danger. It is not for the faint-hearted, a lot of people will hate it for its graphic violence and immoral characters but the way G.R.R. spun his tale is magical. He created a world that I can’t even imagine, and he even created a back story, explaining the history of Westores and the once mighty Valyria.   One thing that a reader/viewer must remember when watching/reading, do not be emotionally involved with any character, they might die anytime. I have learned that lesson when Eddard Stark died, I mean how could you kill your major character? Especially one of the few characters who is honorable and just (the same reasons that got him killed). Only the mighty G.R.R. Martin can do that and kept the story interesting. I just wish he writes faster, but we can’t force him can we? The creators of the TV series D.B. Weiss and David Benioff are also doing great in their adaptation. They made several changes that are necessary and they came up with the best ensemble. I can’t imagine anyone else portraying Eddard Stark or Tyrion Lannister (Peter Dinklage is awesome!). The set is fantastic and CGIs are crazy.  I could go on and on but I will never be enough, all I can is both the books and the TV series are splendid.

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Westeros

The plot line is wickedly awesome. So many complex characters; never revealing their real motives. It’s like watching a Detective Conan episode sometimes, everyone is a suspect.  You’ll hate a character so much you will be so happy when he finally dies (the disgusting, sadistic Joffrey Baratheon). Or feel so guilty when you have grown to like the character that is having an incestuous relationship with his sister and casually pushed a kid off a tower (Jaimie Lannister). You’ll never forgive the writer if he kills Tyrion or Arya Stark (but the damn spoilers I read about her are still troubling me). Oh dear these characters are so messing with my peace of mind.

There are a few times that I could actually suppressed my addiction to GoT like there’s this one time when I already got the latest episode and was so excited to watch it at home after work but I was so dead tired that I decided I will just sleep early and watch it the next day. I can’t even believe that I can withhold myself of anything that has to do with GoT, so I felt weird and proud of myself at the same time. But that rarely happens. I am like a hound when comes to GoT, once I got a sniff of it, I got to have it. I long to meet someone that shares my love for GoT, my sister likes it too but she is not as addicted. I want to discuss my own theories about the whole story. I want someone to geek out with.

Since I haven’t read all the books, I am trying so hard to stay away from all the spoilers but I am not so lucky all the time. It’s like seeing something you’re not supposed to see and you covered your eyes but it’s too late you saw it already and you’ll berate yourself for being so stupid.

Anyhow, I know this is another idiotic blabber but I love GoT so freaking much.

You are doing just fine, you love your life and grateful for all the beautiful things you are blessed with, you are truly happy. Yeah, life is great until you are left all alone with nothing to do but contemplate life.  Then like an avalanche they all come crushing down, deluging you with chaotic thoughts on various issues. Your career, plan to take MBA, family, financial security, love life or rather the lack of it, your writing attempts, having your own place etc.  Suddenly you feel suffocated, can’t breath. You started to panic, time bomb is ticking.  You don’t want to wake up and find that its too ate and you never accomplished anything.   Feeling like your trapped in the same place, can’t seem to move on. All those plans, they took so long to accomplished. Seems like hard work, faith, and resilience are not enough. Outside forces that are beyond your control keep on messing with your game plan.

Sun and Wind

April is over and I don’t know how it happened.  What I know is that I loved it! So many things had happened.  One of the highlights is our office’s recent workshop/team building in Sol Y Viento Resort in Pansol, Laguna.  The resort is still new, just two year in business (according to one of the staff).  A lot of construction is on going but it didn’t diminish the beauty of the place.  It’s on top of the mountain or along the mountain (whichever is right).  They followed the terrain of the mountain and its like they carved the resort out of the mountain’s face.  I have to admit this realization made me worried, human beings just can’t live nature alone.  What seemed to be an uncharted place decades ago is now accessible to the public.

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that’s basically how they manage to build a resort on the mountain..

 

Anyway, the view is magnificent.  Our room was located at the 4th level and getting there is quite an exercise but so worth it.  We are opposite the Mount Makiling and from the balcony you can see the entire mountain.  I can totally see Mariang Makiling lying, from her long hair to her legs, that was amazing. I only read about her when I was in grade school and now I can proudly say I saw her in person (fangirl mode and to an inanimate object).

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that’s Mount Makiling, too bad I can’t capture the whole mountain

The resort as I have mentioned earlier is gorgeous. The view is amazing and the ambiance is very peaceful and relaxing.  You can see the Laguna de Bay and of course the stunning Mount Makiling.

 

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that’s us in front of our room, Mount Makiling as our gorgeous back drop

 

 

The restaurant is not so huge but beautiful, it’s rustic and elegant at the same time (that’s the same thing I can say to the whole resort).  The food selection is not so great, typical Filipino food and a bit of foreign cuisine.  They taste quite good, especially the crispy pata.  The price is like those of restaurants but some are good enough for 3 persons.  Considering our budget, we did good, since we end up so full and satisfied.  I truly enjoyed the lunch, the sinigang na sugpo, kare-kare and crispy pata (yum)

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from left; crispy pata, kare-kare and sinigang na sugpo

We went around the resort riding in golf cart and it was just a short trip since some parts are off limits due to ongoing construction.

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no, I did not drive the golf cart (that would be a disaster)

There are currently (I saw several small pools that are not yet ready to be used) 4 pools in the resort.  The largest if a 5 feet pool with cold water (cold compared to the rest of the pools).  There are 3 hot spring pool, the largest where you can actually swim is probably 4 feet or less, with a temperature of 35 degree Celsius.  The other two are not intended for swimming, you can just submerge your body and enjoy the hot spring water, one is 37 degree Celsius and the hottest is 39 degree Celsius.  I tried all, but stayed at the 37 degree with the rest of the group.  The water was so soothing to my tired, weary body and mind.  It was just right, the water is hot but the wind is cold.  There is also a man made falls but we were not able to experience it since they only let the water flow during afternoon and probably for just a couple of hours.  We got our picture taken though.Image                                                                   

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getting up there is not easy, I was afraid I will slip

It was a great vacation (though short), I would love to go back a year later and see how much improvement is done.