Let’s go 2016!!!

Time really fly so fast.   It’s 2016 already and I find myself asking where all those days went.  I really want to make huge decisions and take risks this year.  I want to  go big or go home, after all I am not getting any younger.  If I don’t go after my heart’s desire now, I might not get what I want at all.  The thing is I am a big procrastinator and for years I have struggled to win against procrastination.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not lazy, I don’t sit around waiting.  I have actually done a lot in my life recently but I have grand visions and they won’t make come to life without my intervention.  I want to do so much and expect a lot from my self.  I want to to excel in all facets of my life. I have this awesome plan in my mind but I am usually occupied with my daily routine, with work and studies and other everyday stuff .  With enough  determination I know I can do more. I just have to be strict with my self and start doing something instead of wasting time reading silly stuff and watching TV shows ( probably a 2 episode per weekend will do? This will a huge challenge for me).

What do I really want in life? A lot that’s for sure.   I am not talking about money alone though it’s one of my priorities in life right now, I am talking about everything that I  want to improve in my personal, professional, social, physical, financial, spiritual life.

I want to  improve whatever minuscule writing skill I have but I am too lazy to write anything at all most of the time. This very thing I am writing now is a result of me forcing my self to write down some of thousand different thoughts in my head.   I have to create a semblance of order inside my mind or I will not accomplish anything at all and that would break my heart.  I really have to work on my daily schedule and stick to it. I need to start working on my 10,000 hours if I want to be really good at something as Malcolm Gladwell said in one of his books.  Yes, 10,000 hours and I need to make a dent on that humongous number.  I hope to write a book one day and it won’t happen if I can’t even manage to write anything that does not sound like a monologue.

I need to focus on my finances and this is my top priority this year.  I need to not just keep track of what I am spending but to spend less and think of ways to earn more.  I have to not just save but to start investing even a little bit.

I also have to finalize my career plan. To make a concrete plan on what are my next steps after I finished MBA.  Not that I am graduating this year but I really have to figure out what I want to do next and on what industry/field should I focus on.

It is also important that I take care of my body, to make sure that I eat only healthy food, to exercise regularly and not exhaust myself both mentally and physically.

The social side of my life is also of utmost importance for me.  I meet new people regularly but I rarely make a connection being the introvert that I am.  Establishing a social network is very important if I want to make it in this world.  I have to work on my social skills because I have almost zero ability to make small talks and socializing.  I am a nerd and I don’t mind staying in a corner alone as long as I am reading something or messing up with my android phone and even I know that it is not healthy.

Oh look at that list.  I am turning into a grown up now,  right? Well so much work and I better get started.  2014 and 2015 has been both very challenging but also amazing years for me, 2016 should be better.

Hey 2016 let’s have blast!! You and I, we’ll make an awesome team.



Hello 2015

January 4, 2014

1:30 am

Still awake, been up all night watching movies; Hang Over 3, Predestination, Argo and Epic.  Tomorrow is going to my first day of work for 2015.  I had a long Christmas vacation, 2 weeks and I am quite bored at home but don’t think I am ready to back to work yet.  I don’t only have to prepare myself for my job but also for a new trimester at school.  I am excited and I know it’s not going to be easy having a full time job and pursuing graduate studies but I’ll do great, I am claiming it.

For the past two weeks I haven’t really took the time to write down anything or read those books waiting for me.  I did read a lot but all of them romance novels and they don’t count as far as my reading challenge is concerned.  I have planned before the Christmas vacation that I am going to make this break a productive one, reading books in my to-be read pile and writing on my journal or my blog.  I wrote one for my blog but I only forced myself to do it.  It seems like I am not really into writing as I want to believe.  I remember writing a lot in my journal before when I am stressed out, miserable, angry and just wanting to let off some steam.  Writing is my solace when things get messy but when I am happy I rarely write, usually I just force myself to write anything just so that I can read something light and positive in my journal or blog.  I remember deciding to focus on improving my “writing skills”, dedicating at least an hour writing just about anything and here I am months after, still procrastinating.  I am really busy but that shouldn’t be an excuse if I want to be successful, if I want to do something that makes me happy.

Lately, I spent a lot of time sleeping, reading and re-reading romance novels, playing in my tablet, catching up on my favorite TV series and watching movies and I sometimes feel guilty.  I would tell myself that I deserve it after a very challenging year at work, dealing with my family, pursuing MBA and all those little things that need to be done.  I feel guilty because I promised to myself that I would read Dan Brown’s Inferno (it’s paperback I bought 4 months ago), J.R.R. Tolkien’s Fellowship of the Rings (I scoured BookSale for months for this), George R.R. Martin’s  Storm of Swords (which I requested in my wish list for our office’s exchange gift).  Years ago, I would have devoured all these books but recently I am more comfortable reading on my tablet (I can read in bed with the lights off) and I can bring it with me anywhere but I also love the experience of touching a real book, smelling it and flipping the pages.  I can blame it to my lack of personal space.  I don’t want reading in the living room because it’s always noisy with my siblings around.   I share a room with my sisters and I can’t read if the light is out, I know I should get an overhead lamp or something that Jessica Day uses when she’s reading on her bed (a light like surgeons use when they are operating).  I just feel bad that I kept on ignoring these awesome books in favor of romance novels and if I have to be honest I would say that I chose them because I don’t have to think when reading them and for someone who’s stressed-out at work and school, it’s not unlikely. I have been reading Malcolm Gladwell’s Outliers and it is an amazing book, the problem is once I stopped reading it, I find it so hard to continue which boggles me because I really love it (again probably because I have to think when I am reading that book).  I will finish that book within the first week of January 2015 and will start on books of my favorite non-romance authors.

I have to pull myself together, be mindful of the things that I am doing and make sure that I don’t waste time doing things that will not help me become the person I always wanted to be: smart, confident, responsible, respectable, healthy and compassionate (the list could go on).  I need to write this down as a reminder to myself that everything I do will affect my future and I have to be conscious of how I spend every precious second of my life.  What do I want? Is it realistic? How can I accomplish it? What do I have to do?  I need to have purpose and stay focused.  That’s one of my flaws but I can’t let that get in the way, I have to get ahold of myself, I am no longer a kid.  Yeah, age in not an issue, should never be, but I should make the most of my years and I want to do something that I can be proud of and say that my almost 30 years of existence is not a waste of time and space.

To be fair, I had a great year.  2014 has been so challenging but equally rewarding to me.  I cried, had my hope crushed, worked so hard, put my heart in something that I always wanted and it paid off.  The past year has been a myriad of experiences and emotions, a roller coaster ride and boy did I enjoy it.  I had some of my worst moments in 2014 but it also had some of my best and happiest days.  2014 had taught me that hard work pays off, perseverance and resilience can really get you somewhere, sometimes sheer determination is the only thing that stands between failure and triumph, going after my dreams maybe hard but it’s definitely worth the effort and that I really need to listen to what my soul says, go after what it yearns for because life would be empty if I don’t.  There are some people in my life that are hell bent on destroying their lives and in turn mine and I just have to admit that I am better off without them, that I owe it to myself to stay away from people that suck the happiness out of me.

Looking back, I asked myself, what made 2014 so amazing?  What did I do?  Can I do it again?  Can I make my 2015 as great as my 2014 was or can I make it better?  The answers are all within me and yes I can make 2015 better, I am claiming it.  Starting with my habits,  my daily routine and my goals.  I haven’t checked my entire to-do list for 2014 but almost, so for 2015 I should do better.  I am not into the whole New Year’s resolution; I believe that anyone can decide to start over again anytime.  I just use the start and end of the year as a measuring stick, to determine how I am doing so far in comparison to what I want to achieve.  I am very ambitious, even as a young kid and growing up I learned that it’s not as easy as it seems.  Plans alone won’t get you anywhere.  Forces out of your control will mess up with your life, people will do stupid things that will affect your life and spin it out of control.  I am a control freak; I want everything to fall according to plan, which rarely happens.  Sometimes no matter how much you try to make life better there are just things that you can’t control, they will mess up with your carefully planned out life and sometimes all you can do is ride the tide, wait for it calm down and then do your thing, make everything count cause you don’t know when will the tide will rise and how high it can be.  There is no such thing as security, so you just have to keep riding that beast we call life, like a rider on a back of a wild horse, move with it and don’t let it throw you off, but when it does be sure to pick yourself up and get back on the saddle until you get the hang out.  Going back to what I can do to make 2015 better, I will have to start on my daily routine.  The usual; wake up early, come to office on time, work efficiently, leave work on time, exercise,e xcel in class, read and write more, go out more, basically making the most of each day.

I decided that this is going to be a year for myself.  For years, I dedicated my life and money helping my family, working so hard to improve our quality of life and I still will but this year I will put myself first and no I won’t feel any guilt.  I deserve this.

For this year I hope to accomplish this list.

  1. I hope to start a workout regimen and stick with it (something I failed to do last year) even when my schedule gets crazy, I have to remind myself that my body is my weapon and if I don’t take care of it, it won’t take care of me. I have to eat more healthy food (I try all the time but it’s not easy).
  2. Read those books have been in my to be read pile for years, books that from various genres. Read more books written by local authors (aside from Bob Ong and Jessica Zafra).
  3. Write more, in my journal and blog. Make my blog more professional (even if no one else reads it). Start a novel (even if it sucks).
  4. Save, save, save. I am almost 30 and my savings is not something I am proud of.
  5. Excel in school. Ace the subjects.
  6. Have a boyfriend. I have to work on it, I don’t know how but I will. Date a few before choosing one to be my boyfriend, so I better do this soon.
  7. Travel abroad, to Hong Kong or Singapore and to Cambodia. Travel more locally. Have a separate savings for travel.
  8. Be more efficient and effective in my job. No more loose strings, finish as much paper works as I can in each day. Do things in advance. Be the best SRS there is. Decide which career path I am going to pursue and start working on it.
  9. Have our house improved. Will take lots of money but I know I can make this happen.
  10. Be more in touch with my spiritual side.
  11. Be the best daughter, sister, friend, employee, girlfriend I can be 🙂

Hello 2015, I am so excited for your.  I have a feeling you and I are going to have a great time together.

Welcome 2014

It’s the time of the year when people feel like they are starting anew. When we feel as if a  clean slate is waiting for us to fill with all great things imaginable.  A time when most are inspired to change for the better.  When we feel like its the start of a new beginning.  It’s when people come up with lists of things they want to change, accomplish and try.  It’s New Year once again.  I know, you can always decide to change anytime but New Year is really special (at least for me).  There is just something about the first few days of the year that makes us feel energetic, inspired and just so excited for the future.  It must be the long vacation we enjoyed, must be the days we spent with loved ones, must be the all the celebrations and parties we’ve attended, must be the weather.  Whatever it is, it filled our hearts with hope and enthusiasm.

Like most people, I am excited to start the year. I am not a fan of New Year’s resolution but I do have a list of things that I want to prioritize this year.  It is more like a guide for me, something to remind me what really matters when I am so distracted with all the crazy things that kept me busy.  This year I want to be more bold, aggressive, confident, carefree and curious.  I love who I am and quiet proud of who I’ve become but I know I can always be a better person, that I have yet to achieve the best version I could ever be.

This year I’ll be more fun loving, spontaneous and go getter.  I will stick to my plans but a little fun while doing them won’t hurt.  I will make sure that every moment I spent on this earth is worth the life God blessed me with.  I could be so serious in life sometimes so I also have to remind myself that it’s not always about money (like Jessie J said) it’s about seizing those precious moments that might never happen again, its enjoying life while fulfilling your responsibilities and going after your dreams.  I strongly believe that God created us to live a beautiful life and to be happy. Life may not be easy and its actually expensive but its all worth it.  I also believe that happiness is a choice, that no one else is in charge of my happiness except me.

So in my pursuit of happiness and fulfillment I would like to do these:

1.  Wake up earlier than I used to, stretch a bit or do a quick exercise routine, prepare for the whole day physically, mentally and spiritually.  Note: leave work on time, so you can go home early, go to bed early and wake up early.

2. Save, save, save. The past couple years has been so “expensive” for me.  I have younger siblings that I send to school. I hardly set aside some money to save. This year, I will make sure that I track everything I spend.  I am not big spender, I am thrifty actually but I have a family to support, enough said.

3. Read more, write more.

4. Exercise regularly, commit to a fitness routine.

5. Take and pass the Civil Service Exam.

6. Enroll in MBA.

That’s it for now. Gotta go.

2014 here I come!!